There are times, usually when I'm very emotional or experiencing the less than fun emotions, that I want to scoop them all out and feel nothing. I'm done with them. I no longer want them.
And, with my Crohn's, I want to just feel like a halfway normal person that can function generally well day to day. Frustrating times, but at least we're not alone in the feelings. 🙃
Once again, a poignant piece with perfect timing! I just on Monday told my therapist I've been struggling with this feeling exactly and even used the phrase "idle hands are the devil's tools". I'm even reading this on my "break" between the many timers I set for myself to be productive on my one day off. I think maybe like you suggested, it's time to allow myself a real break. Often when my brain gets fuzzy and listless I put on Girl in Space. I think it may be time for a listen and a moment for myself. Endless thanks xoxo
How do you always know when to write these? 😭 This again came brilliantly after two days of brain fog that I thought I was finally getting away from. I totally understand the urge to replace our brains with a mechanical one especially if it means being alert and functioning. Thank you so much for all your words and what you do. You do matter. Greatly. I'm glad you have that friend that reminds you of that constantly.
Sarah, I’ve been an avid follower of your podcast, twitter, instagram for years! I’m subscribed to your patreon and its a pleasure to follow you here. The fear of dying before creating something meaningful is so real and its a constant and chronic fear! It terrifies me. I wish I could whip out a legacy fast without being impatient at the process that builds me in turn... But here i am, impatient, breathless and trying to take it one day at a time... You matter to me. You always have.
I love how honest you are Sarah. I too struggle with the “need to feel accomplished in some way” every day struggle but unlike you I avoid taxes and instead de clutter a drawer!
I feel this post in my bones! THANK YOU for putting into words the frustration I feel when life gets in the way of writing. I experience chronic migraines, and there is nothing I hate more than when I get a one, and I can no longer function. I don't get to write a whole lot, but I do write every day, so when that is taken away from me, it's so frustrating. So thank you!
There are times, usually when I'm very emotional or experiencing the less than fun emotions, that I want to scoop them all out and feel nothing. I'm done with them. I no longer want them.
And, with my Crohn's, I want to just feel like a halfway normal person that can function generally well day to day. Frustrating times, but at least we're not alone in the feelings. 🙃
You just GET IT, Sarah.
I swear sometimes it's like we're sharing a large chunk of brain matter. Possibly not in a sinister way.
You matter, unless you multiply yourself by the speed of light squared, then you energy.
😂😂😂
Once again, a poignant piece with perfect timing! I just on Monday told my therapist I've been struggling with this feeling exactly and even used the phrase "idle hands are the devil's tools". I'm even reading this on my "break" between the many timers I set for myself to be productive on my one day off. I think maybe like you suggested, it's time to allow myself a real break. Often when my brain gets fuzzy and listless I put on Girl in Space. I think it may be time for a listen and a moment for myself. Endless thanks xoxo
How do you always know when to write these? 😭 This again came brilliantly after two days of brain fog that I thought I was finally getting away from. I totally understand the urge to replace our brains with a mechanical one especially if it means being alert and functioning. Thank you so much for all your words and what you do. You do matter. Greatly. I'm glad you have that friend that reminds you of that constantly.
you. matter.
Sarah, I’ve been an avid follower of your podcast, twitter, instagram for years! I’m subscribed to your patreon and its a pleasure to follow you here. The fear of dying before creating something meaningful is so real and its a constant and chronic fear! It terrifies me. I wish I could whip out a legacy fast without being impatient at the process that builds me in turn... But here i am, impatient, breathless and trying to take it one day at a time... You matter to me. You always have.
Thank you so much Shahd!!! I appreciate your response - and you, and your support - so much.
I love how honest you are Sarah. I too struggle with the “need to feel accomplished in some way” every day struggle but unlike you I avoid taxes and instead de clutter a drawer!
I feel this post in my bones! THANK YOU for putting into words the frustration I feel when life gets in the way of writing. I experience chronic migraines, and there is nothing I hate more than when I get a one, and I can no longer function. I don't get to write a whole lot, but I do write every day, so when that is taken away from me, it's so frustrating. So thank you!
Thank you Sarah!
Ah Sarah. I appreciate you, your words, and their warmth.
I've been experiencing very similar sounding frustrations, and the associated "who am I if I'm not creating" dread.
Keep going. I'll do the same.
UGH SAME